I have been fighting the temptation of not eating for quite a while now. For the past few months I've been trying to lose weight but I CAN'T. So I'm giving in to Ana.... I'm letting her take over my life and become my best friend. Today I actually had a guy tell me that I'm a fat cow :[ I always knew it :[[ but now its official.. I am 5'2" and i weigh a gruesome 115 pounds. My first goal is to reach 105 pounds. Then I'll lower it to 99 pounds and so on... As soon as I get off the computer Iam gonna do 500 crunches, and starting tomorrow I'm gonna starve myself... tomorrow i'll eat a handful of grapes and a bottle of water. Wednesday I'll COMPLETELY starve myself, and I'll be doing 500 crunches a night because I have terrible asthma and I can't run like some people :[ I'm really scared, but I want to do this. I want to be perfect. I don't want my legs to rub against each other when I walk... I wanna see my bones.
